亚洲杯:RichardBillingham

发布日期:2020-05-24   作者:亚洲杯外围   已浏览: 117次

"ThepicturesshownhereareofmyfatherRaymond(born1931):mymotherElisabeth(born1950)andmybrotherJason(born1977).RayisachronicalcoholicandhasdrunkforaslongasIcanremember.Hehasnotworkedsincehewasmoderedundantfromhisjobasamachinistaround1980.Lizveryrarelydrinksbutshedoessmokealotofcigarettes.Myyoungerbrotherstilldoesnotseemtoknowwhathewants:hegetsajobfororweekortwoandthenleavesit.Ithinkheisverylazy."

"Istartedusingacameraaboutsixyearsago.IfeltIneededsomekindofreferencematerialformypaintingsasitisquitedifficulttogetpeopletogivetheirtimetoposeforyou.Iwasstilllivingwithmydadatthetime.Raystoppedinhisroomalmostconstantlydrinkingandsleeping.Ifhewentoutsidehebecomeill.Hedranktogettosleep.Hehadafriendfromaneighbouringtowerblock-himselfanalcoholic-whocamearoundtomakestronghome-brewforhim.Thiswasmuchcheaperthan'buying'alcoholandmeantthatRaydidn'thavetoventureoutsidetotheoff-licence.Hekeptthehome-brewbucketbythesideofhisbedforconvenienceanddrankfromaplasticjugthathewoulddipintothebrew.Ittastedasbadasitlookedbutitmusthovenourishedhimsomehowbecauseheotherwiseneverate.Lizwasn'tlivingwithusthen:shehadleftduetoRoy'sincessantdrinkingandmoaning.Sheseldomvisited."

"ThiswasallquitesadandIwantedtomakepaintingsaboutitthatwereverymoving:thatwouldexpressthetragedyofitall.WhenIprintedupthosephotographs(Iworkedinblack-and-whitethenbecauseitwascheaperthancolour)Iwasapprehensiveaboutlettingontoanybodyaboutwhotheywereofforfearofbecomingunpopularwiththeotherstudentswhowere,Ibelieve,allfrommuchmorefinanciallyandspirituallysecurefamilybackgrounds.IwasfairlyintrovertasateenagerbecauseIhadalwaysbeensomewhatembarrassedaboutthestateofmyfamily.YetafterafewmonthsatcollegeIrealisedthatbylettingstudentsand,especially,tutorsknowwhothepaintingsandphotographswerereallyofIcouldcomecleanaboutthefamilyhistoryandhencerelatetopeoplenaturally.ThiswasquitealoadoffmeandsincethenIthinkl'vebeentakingpicturesofmyclosefamilynotjustasreferenceforpaintingsbutalsoasonattempttocomprehendmyselfandthemmorefully."

"IhavedoneverylittlepaintingsincegraduatingpartlybecauseofalackoffundsforstudiospaceandpartlybecauseIhasasupermarketjobstackingshelves.Instead,Iworkedonthebook'Ray'saLaugh’whichwaspublishedinApril.Myparentsandbrotherareveryhappywiththebook.NeitherInortheyoreshockedbyitsdirectnessbecausewe'reallwell-enoughacquaintedwithhavingtolivewithpoverty.Afterall,therearemillionsofotherpeopleinBritainlivingsimilarly…"

"Itiscertainlynotmyintentiontoshock,tooffend,sensationalise,bepoliticalorwhatever.OnlytomakeworkthatisasspirituallymeaningfulasIcanmakeit.Whateverthemedium.